Hey again....
Today was kind of rough. I woke up at 11 and hadnt meant to sleep in since i had so much homework to do. I ended up going out to lunch at 1130 with my friend N. And we had indian food at a restaurant near by, it was definitely better than eating at the cafeteria. I ended up purging though becuase i felt so full and i was irritated becuase i made a legit attempt to not overeat so i wouldnt purge. I ate exactly what she ate and she is thin and normal and it was just too much...then my roommate invited a bunch of people to sleep over so i decided to just go home for the night to get some work done. Midterms are next week and i need a quiet place to study and focus. My mom picked me up and i went home to work, though being left home alone= b/p and it was bizarre to be back home doing it again, and then we all went out to dinner and i purged again, i guess because iapos;d already done it throughout the day i lose motivation NOT to if i feel like the day is already ruined
okay so weird story. I saw some girl at school who looked emaciated. So emaciated...the kind of thin you only see on websites or in hospitals....and i assumed she probably had an eating disorder. She was sitting by herself in the corner of the cafteria with a salad and her OWN dressing (the zero calorie kind) so i assumed like okay this girl is anorexic, so i added her on facebook and said hello and such and we started talking and eased into the conversation of eds and she totally doesnt believe/think that she has an ed. She just says she has a gluten allergy so theres alot she cant eat and that sheapos;s naturally thin. But its one thing to be naturally thin and another to be emaciated to the point of looking like you are going to die. She has the little fuzzies and bald spots and everything. And shes totally like "yeah i feel bad for people with eating disorders- it must suck..." and i was open with my experiences to her becuase i expected her to do likewise and she was totally and completely not receptive- it was the fucking weirdest thing ever. I cant even explain it
conversations with my mom
mom: so have you had many drs appts lately
zoe: yes, i saw the nutritionist and the therapist last week and i am seeing the shrink tomorrow
mom: oh why so many?
zoe: to keep me on track
mom: oh well dont you think thats alot....
zoe: probably, but they just want to make sure im being healthy and doing okay
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.---zoe purges dinner
hmmm
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